my precious baby, u've been abandon by mummy. its so long since i've been blogging in blogger!!
girls shall not settle for anything less. i don't want to get something because i'm afraid i'll get nothing. i'm gonna be patient and wait upon the lord's timing. (: hahah. randomism!!
ahh~!! its torturing me each time i tink of the past. it hurts me so much just by being tortured by my emotions just by indwelling in the emotional realm. yea. sometimes i just feel so sick and ridiculously mad about myself, cos i would actually like others to pity me, to feel pity about me so as to get concerns and cares from people around me whereby i don't need to. i don't have to. and at times its actually giving me more troubles, the wrong people comes and pester you. the wrong attention drawn towards myself. whereby my source of love that i so longed for is the perfect and never changing love from Him. yea i hate myself at times when i'm so full of myself. but yea thou i still love me for i've been loved by one that i could eventually loved myself into wholeness again!! YEAH!! thank God, i've Christ! ((=
